by Sally Matheny
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I remember when I was about ten years old, our fifth
grade class received boxes of beautiful books. We were told the class would be
divided into small groups. Each group would have their own book to read through together
during the year.
We’d never had “reading groups” before, but we thought it sounded like fun. My friends and I were excited to see which of the pretty books we would get. We thought the book titled “Diversity” had a pretty cover and “Serendipity” looked cool, too.
We’d never had “reading groups” before, but we thought it sounded like fun. My friends and I were excited to see which of the pretty books we would get. We thought the book titled “Diversity” had a pretty cover and “Serendipity” looked cool, too.
Tina, Kim, and I had been best friends since
kindergarten. We liked doing everything together. It never occurred to us we
could be separated.
The students took a reading placement test. Apparently, the
attractive books varied in reading difficulty. The next afternoon, the teacher
called out each book title followed by the names of who was in each group.
Smiles and squeals darted across the room as the names
were called for the “Diversity” group. Several of my friends’ names were called including Kim’s. After a few other names were announced, soggy butterflies filled my stomach.
I whispered to Tina, “How many people
can be in each group?” She answered with a half-smile and shrug of her
shoulders. The teacher called another name— Tina’s. Tina and Kim
celebrated. Surely, my name would be next.
It was not.
Stunned by the sudden isolation, I barely heard my name
called for the “Galaxies” group. Other names were called, but I did not hear
them.
The Diversity reading group was asked to move to an
area at the front of the room. I watched in agony as all my closest friends
excitedly walked past me.
That was the day Satan injected me with a lie. I began
to believe I was not smart or good enough.
The lie circulated in my system for so many years, I believed it to be true. Satan's lies inject us with fears and doubts. Courtesy of Dreamstime Photos |
Was it my teacher’s fault? No. The Department of Education’s? Maybe. Satan’s? Absolutely.
“You’re ugly.”
“You’ll never amount to anything.”
“You’re just average.”
"There's nothing special about you."
"There's nothing special about you."
“No one will ever love you.”
I hope you know now they are all lies.
I remember going to my teacher after school that day.
With tears in my eyes, I asked her if there was any way I could be in the
Diversity group. She explained about the placement test but assured me if I
worked hard, I would catch up to them.
I was determined to join them in the Diversity
group. I did work hard but reading groups in the schools, back then, weren’t really
geared for self-pacing. There was never an opportunity to advance and join the same group
as my friends.
My compassionate teacher always gave me hope and
inspired me to keep at it. She never did anything to make me feel inferior. She
and my parents encouraged me to do my best and not to worry about anything
else.
With God's help we can break the chain of lies we believe about ourselves. (Courtesy of Dreamstime Photos) |
And He has a superb plan for each of you. He created each
of us to be unique. How amazing is that?
The problem is, we slow down the progression of that wonderful plan when we mire up in Satan's lies. But God's powerful. Nothing is impossible with him. If we will let go of the lies, God will work amazing wonders! He can transform our weaknesses into His power tools! He can convert our self-imposed hindrances into catapults to reach others for His kingdom.
Are you hanging onto a lie from long ago? Hit the eject
button, and prepare to be amazed at what the Truth can do!
I can so relate....Thanks!
ReplyDeleteMary Jane-
DeleteIt happens to all of us. :)
I love the You I know. You are so talented. God made you special and gave you certain gifts He didn't give to anyone else. You bless me. Thanks for your transparancy.
ReplyDeleteYou are a special blessing as well. :)
DeletePressing the EJECTION button. thank you for this my very talented friend. Much needed.
ReplyDeleteSo nice to hear from you M.E. Sometimes we have to remind ourselves to keep hitting the eject button!
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