6.5.13

Carrying Around Injected Lies Since Childhood

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We hear lies every day from all sorts of media. As adults, we try to research, seek wisdom, and discern the lies from the truth. Sometimes, children aren’t as fortunate. Even some adults still carry around lies they were injected with during childhood.

I remember when I was about ten years old, our fifth grade class received boxes of beautiful books. We were told the class would be divided into groups. Each group would have their own book to read through together during the year. We’d never had “reading groups” before, but we thought it sounded like fun. My friends and I were excited to see which of the pretty books we would get. We thought the book titled “Diversity” had a pretty cover and “Serendipity” looked cool, too.

Tina, Kim, and I had been best friends since kindergarten. We liked doing everything together. It never occurred to us we could be separated.

Students took a reading placement test. Apparently, the pretty books varied in reading difficulty. The next afternoon, the teacher called out each book title followed by the names of who was in each group.

Smiles and squeals darted across the room as the names were called for the “Diversity” group. Several of my friends’ names were called. Kim’s name was called. A nervous feeling dropped in my stomach.

 “How many people can be in each group?” I whispered to Tina. She gave a half-smile and shrugged her shoulders. The teacher called another name—then Tina’s name. Tina and Kim celebrated. Surely, my name would be next.

It was not.

Stunned by the sudden isolation, I barely heard my name called for the “Galaxies” group. Other names were called, but I did not hear them.

The Diversity reading group was asked to move to an area at the front of the room. I watched in agony as all my closest friends excitedly walked past me.


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That was the day Satan injected me with a lie. I began to believe I was not smart or good enough.

I carried that lie and believed it to be truth for a long, long time.




Was it my teacher’s fault? No. The N.C. Department of Education’s—maybe. Satan’s? Absolutely.

So, what lie have you believed most of your life?

“You’re ugly.”

“You’ll never amount to anything.”

“You don’t belong.”

“You’re no good.”

“No one will ever love you.”

I hope you know they are all lies.

I remember going up to my teacher after school that day. With tears in my eyes, I asked her if there was any way I could be in the Diversity group. She explained about the placement test but assured me if I worked hard, I would catch up to them.

I was determined to catch up and be in the Diversity group. I did work hard but reading groups in school, back then, weren’t really geared for self-pacing. There was never an opportunity to join the same group as my friends.

My compassionate teacher always gave me hope and inspired me to keep at it. She never did anything to make me feel inferior. She and my parents encouraged me to do my best and not to worry about anything else.


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I did give my best, but somehow I still locked into the lie that I was substandard. It would be years before I allowed God to break that chain.

Fact is my friends were academically smarter. They scored higher on achievement tests and didn’t seem to struggle with some of the subjects as I did. But it was okay. God had different talents and strengths for me.

God has a superb plan for each of us. He created each person to be unique. How amazing is that?

Problem is we slow down the progression of that superb plan when we are mired up in lies. God is so awesome, though. Nothing is impossible with him. If we will let go of the lies, God will work amazing wonders! He can transform our weaknesses into His power tools! He can convert our self-imposed hindrances into catapults for His kingdom.

Are you hanging onto a lie from long ago? Hit the eject button, and prepare to be amazed at what the Truth can do!

6 comments:

  1. I can so relate....Thanks!

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    1. Mary Jane-
      It happens to all of us. :)

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  2. I love the You I know. You are so talented. God made you special and gave you certain gifts He didn't give to anyone else. You bless me. Thanks for your transparancy.

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    1. You are a special blessing as well. :)

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  3. Pressing the EJECTION button. thank you for this my very talented friend. Much needed.

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    1. So nice to hear from you M.E. Sometimes we have to remind ourselves to keep hitting the eject button!

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